The "Up!" and Down of pregnancy!: The Introduction

I have been jonesing to write again and madly in love with my son, Titus, so I thought I would write about him. I almost decided against it because he is already three months but then I thought to myself, he is only three months!

This Blog will be about my journey as a father. As of now, it will not offer advice on parenting, just reporting the Story of Titus.

This entry starts way back. A few weeks before we even knew we were pregnant. You see, Erin (my wife/Titus's mommy) and I weren't necessarily trying to get pregnant but we also weren't preventing it either. We had stopped using birth control and were just going to let whatever happen happen. That was in 2007. For 2 years we "weren't trying but not preventing." We wondered and prayed and worried and assumed. Many times I thought we were just unable to get pregnant. Many times I lamented at the idea that all those people who don't even want children get pregnant all the time, but we can't even get anything. A couple of times I even thought about asking the doctor or making an appointment but I read online somewhere that we would be considered kinda young to worry about it. Either way, the discussion intensified. Would we be able to? Wouldn't it be fun? What is going on? Why isn't it happening?

To make matters worse, we watched the movie "Up!" by Pixar. Erin and I went to Chico to see it in awesome 3D. Anyone who has seen the movie knows that there is an intro to the movie that is just the saddest thing ever. Now imagine, you and your wife are wondering if you will ever be able to have children. If, after two years, if we would become pregnant. If your prayers would be heard. The conversations building with your anxiety, fears, hope and this movies opens with a couple growing up together, getting married, trying and wanting to have children but not being able to. They make a nursery, painting and adjusting. The next scene is them at the doctor's office and she is just crying. The theme music is much slower with emphasis on the minor. The next scene is the wife sitting outside awkwardly all alone with her eyes closed grieving what will never be (and this is supposed to be a kids movie). The husband makes certain promises but doesn't come through. The couple grows old and the wife dies. By the time the wife died, I was in tears. My stomach feeling awful. My face getting red and puffy.

This was our story. "Up!" was released May 29, 2009 and about 6 weeks later we found out that we were pregnant. We were elated. A baby was to be born and getting pregnant was the hard part right? Pregnancy should be smooth sailing, right?

Here is a link to the opening of "Up!": http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GroDErHIM_0

The next few post will cover some pregnancy stuff but other than that... we should be caught up!


Peace!